Most important night of my life....

I know i haven't got on this topic before but this is my online journal and this was truly important for me.

So this weekend I was invited up to Ventura by my friend Catherine Clark. I have been in a dark period of my life for a long time now and had confined some of these emotions with cat. She recommended coming with her to her church, Adorn. At first I was a bit unsure if I wanted to because I have always acknowledged a higher power but didn't really see myself as the church going type. I went though knowing that cat wouldn't put me through something that condemned my actions or attacked me personally. First she played a little gig in down town Ventura and I was in awe of her talent with music. We then headed to the church and soon as the scripture started it was as if the pastor was talking to me directly. I have been placing surfing in front of god my entire life. These unfortunate events have continued to bestow on me my entire life and I was angry for my lack of luck. I came t to the realization that God is my creator and that he gave me my life and without that life, I wouldn't have surfing. By choosing surfing in his place would be completely disrespectful to his gift to me. I felt elated, with each deep breath i felt like the wrong doings of my past were washing away. Guilt and negative beliefs I had for myself were fleeing and I for the first time in a long time was happy. I want to thank Cat for giving me this tremendous gift as I'm forever in her gratitude for saving me from myself.